Thursday, 21 April 2011

Before I Was A Mom

Before I was a mom I used to spend all my money on cigarettes and tattoos.  I used to dye my hair red, green, or orange just for fun.  When I needed a change I got something pierced.  I used to listen to angry rock music littered with swearing, blasting out of my car as I drove down the highway.  I stayed up late and got up late.  I was selfish.  I did what I wanted, when I wanted.

It really is amazing how having children changes you, in so many ways.  Physically, emotionally, mentally, I will never be the same person.  I am a better person.

This video has been circulating on FB:
Before I Became a Mom
I saw it come up, but avoided watching it because I didn't want to be sucked in to the wishy washy mom stuff.  But then, by the 3rd or 4th time I saw it posted, I had to click on it.  I knew I would cry, and I did.

Everything is true.  You never think about these things before your have children.  I still can't get over how much being a mother has changed me.  There really are no words.  Well actually, there are lots of words, just none of my own.  So I will rely on others.

Before I was a Mom

Before I was a Mom
I made and ate hot meals.
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a Mom
I slept as late as I wanted
And never worried about how late I got into bed.
I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was a Mom
I cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys or forgot the words to lullabies.

Before I was a Mom
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom
I had never been puked on
Pooped on
Spit on
Chewed on
Peed on
Or pinched by tiny fingers.

Before I was a Mom
I had complete control of my mind
My thoughts
My body
And I slept all night and got plenty of rest.

Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child
So that doctors could do tests or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
When I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew what love at first sight really meant.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
Every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth
The joy
The love
The heartache
The wonderment.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much
Before I was a Mom

-author unknown

And just for a laugh:

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